Played “Sims 2” for a couple
of hours this morning and then we went and had Arby’s… again… When we got back, my brother (of course) got
on the PS2. He’s currently been on for 2 hours. He keeps saying “wait till my mission is over” “oh
I think this is the last boss”… yeah right… I’m just writing and reading (a little) and listening
to music… might see if I can get on the computer for a little bit…
Went on the computer… one new message
from my friend Lestat from Gothopia. Steve hasn’t written me or offlined me since Sunday… I hope everything is
okay… I talked to my ex for an hour. I don’t have feelings for him so get out of your head (to those who know
what I mean)… I’m only friends with him. Me and him are over and have been over for over a month. I am with Steve!
STEVE! That’s it! Me and Steve. July 21, 2005-? We’ve been together for nearly 13 months! I love Steve. I believe
in my heart that I love Steve. My hopes and dreams about love with him will be confirmed once we’re together officially
and in person! Once I have seen him in person I will know it’s real and true and love and passion and everything I dreamed
and fantasized it to be!... Until then… it still feels like a dream. I have the perfect guy and it’s up to him
to make the action of being here when he says he will be…
IF Steve is here this Christmas, then everything
will change. IF he is NOT here this Christmas, then everything will change but more in a bad way than a good way. Bad than
good because I’m not sure how much longer I can wait. IF he’s not here Christmas, then HAS to be here my spring
vacation. He needs to be here before another year goes by. He was supposed to be here already but he couldn’t. Things
changed. He didn’t tell me that Summer meant his and not mine. I thought I’d have to wait another year. THAT is
why I broke up with him. THAT and he wasn’t able to keep his promises and call when he said he would or even be on or
anything. Technical difficulties here and there… but… It’s hard to trust someone after everything that has
happened. I have had every guy lie to me before him. My ex never lied to me. He lied to my parents but never once did he lie
to me. He kept all his promises. Steve said he’d call me while I was gone and he hasn’t. I had my cell off for
a day cause my battery died. He said that he had tried to call me but I almost don’t believe him. I hope that things
really are different with Steve like said. He said that he was going to keep his promises and everything. I don’t know.
I think that he’s going to really have to prove this to me. My relationship with my ex wasn’t totally horrible.
It ended badly and we had some rough patches but… my ex never lied, kept all his promises, was faithful, and told me
the truth even if I didn’t want to hear it. The thing I hated most was him constantly telling me about the women wanting
him every damn day! IF he hadn’t done that and IF I hadn’t gone a little nuts with the negativity… it wouldn’t
have ended. I don’t know if I wish it hadn’t or not. It’s a bad thing to say right now but it’s the
truth. I don’t have feelings for Vern but I’ll never stop caring. He is now a major part of my life. Or well…
the summer of 2006. He was my fling for a month. I said I wanted a fling and I got one. That’s all it was.
Enough about the asswhole. The main thing
in my life is school right now. My relationship with Steve is perfect. I’m faithful and he’s faithful. That’s
all that matters. I am going to get through the first semester of college. Hopefully, I’ll have Christmas with the love
of my life.
THE END!
I LOVE STEVE DAVIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
More tomorrow…
