I called Steve to tell him the great news of me getting a job and getting a car(!) but he hung up on me. I left an angry message that i'm starting to regret. If he wants to act childish and not listen to the quickness of me saying that i have a job and car then oh well. Maybe... I dunno. I love Steve. I will say that every day till the day I die. First loves will never go away. Steve was/is my first love. I emailed him and told him that breaking up is up to him. That I do love him and that I do want him here and I don't want to break up. I hope he chooses what his heart tells him and not his anger at me. I'm really sorry baby!

 

So... as of now... ywah... i'm confused....

 

More tomorrow...