Anyways...

 

Sparky is here and we're gonna hang today. I'm really upset right now. Steve has gone overboard. He's giving me permission to sleep around but just can't tell him. That's shit. I can sleep with whoever I want when i want. I just have chose not to. I've gotten 3 repeating offers already. I choose not to sleep with guys cause I was in love with Steve and didn't plan on sleeping with anyone BUT him for the rest of my life. But whatever. I'm so sick of his shit. When he's ready to get back into a relationship he can call and say that he was wrong to say what I needed was space and to find myself and all that shit. I'm fucking eighteen! I dont' need to find my self for another year or so. I mean damn! I'm so fucking young. I just want to have fun and get through the first year of college right now. I do have fun. I just don't believe i have to go out to have fun. Staying at home, talking to friends online or (but this is very rare) on the phone, watching movies, reading, writing, and doing other shit at home is fun enough for me. Going out is more fun but most of my friends hang out with other friends or with their bf or gf or go out and have fun doing things i don't do. Fuck this shit. I'm done.

 

Addition to today...

I spent four hours on the phone last night talking to D. It was hilarious! He tried to sing with the music and he couldn't! It was hilarious! He was drinking and I was getting sugar high! It was fucking awesome!

 

More this weekend....