I had a lot to eat and let me say... I'm really really really full. I called Steve last night to wish him a Happy Turkey
Day but I think he was ignoring the calls cause I never got to his voicemail, which is all i wanted to do. Leave a message
that said "hey steve, it's chels, just wanted to say happy turkey day. Hope all is well, talk to ya soon." But I didn't get
to.
I talked to D last night for about two and a half hours! I love talking to him. We never have the same conversation twice.
It's great! I have a good feeling about him and I. We're not together but we are really really good friends. Meeting in January
will be great because then once we know each other through hanging out then we could become close friends. I'm not going to
pursue a relationship with him. Not till we've met and see if there's an attraction. Hopefully not. I want Steve in my life.
Sometimes I wonder if the reason we fought and the reason he "broke up" with me is because it just isn't meant to be. I want
the relationship with him. I want to go through the plans we made because I know he loves me back.
I hate to say this but in a way I'm glad that me and steve had broke the first time. I would never have met ryan, david,
doc (aka yoda), vern, or dennis. I wouldn't gotten 4 new friendships and a HUGE lesson learned through vern.
IF me and Steve don't get back together, then the next relationship will be slow. Friends, date, relationship, move in,
sex, and the world goes from there. Me and Dennis are thinking about going on a date cause our friends are saying that there
is something between him and I because we talk so much. We've talked about near EVERYTHING! We have ALL the same interests.
So maybe we'll go on ONE date. We already talked about the perfect date and came up with the SAME answer: dinner, dancing,
movie, coffee, and talking till sleep catches on. He's great. I'm VERY excited to meet him in January. If this friendship
with me and Dennis ruins the relationship me and Steve want, then it's not meant to be. Be jealous if you must Steve but that
is your choice. I have guy friends and will continue to have guy friends. I will continue to go out and hang out with guys.
I don't have but 3 female friends here in tiny town. Oh well.
Honestly, if everything happens for a reason. If me and Steve were meant to be then we were. If not then we aren't. We
have gone through a lot.
More tomorrow...
